角色
“成为你自己！”——这句话如同一切道德格言一样知易行难。我甚至无法判断，我究竟是否已经成为了我自己。角色在何处结束，真实的自我在何处开始，这界限常常是模糊的。有些角色仅是服饰，有些角色却已经和我们的躯体生长在一起，如果把它们一层层剥去，其结果比剥葱头好不了多少。
演员尚有卸妆的时候，我们却生生死死都离不开社会的舞台。在他人目光的注视下，甚至隐居和自杀都可以是在扮演一种角色。
也许，只有当我们扮演某个角色露出破绽时，我们才得以一窥自己的真实面目。
人在社会上生活，不免要担任各种角色。但是，倘若角色意识过于强烈，我敢断言一定出了问题。一个人把他所担任的角色看得比他的本来面目更重要，无论如何暴露了一种内在的空虚。我不喜欢和一切角色意识太强烈的人打交道，例如名人意识强烈的名流，权威意识强烈的学者，长官意识强烈的上司等等，那会使我感到太累。我不相信他们自己不累，因为这类人往往也摆脱不掉别的角色感，在儿女面前会端起父亲的架子，在自己的上司面前要表现下属的谦恭，就像永不卸妆的演员一样。人之扮演一定的社会角色也许是迫不得已的事，依我的性情，能卸妆时且卸妆，要尽可能自然地生活。
我心中有一个声音，它是顽强的，任何权势不能把它压灭。可是，在日常的忙碌和喧闹中，它却会被冷落、遗忘，终于喑哑了。
在人生的舞台上，我们每个人都在忙忙碌碌地扮演自己的角色，比真的演员还忙，退场的时间更少。例如，我整天坐在这桌子前，不停地写，为出版物写，按照编辑、读者的需要写。我暗暗怀着一个愿望，有一天能抽出空来，写我自己真正想写的东西，写我心中的那个声音。可是，总抽不出时间。到真空下来的时候，我就会发现，我不知道自己真正想写什么，我心中的那个声音沉寂了，不知去向了。
别老是想，总有一天会写的。自我不是一个可以随意支使的侍从，你老是把它往后推，它不耐烦，一去不返了。
人不易摆脱角色。有时候，着意摆脱所习惯的角色，本身就是在不由自主地扮演另一种角色。反角色也是一种角色。
一种人不自觉地要显得真诚，以他的真诚去打动人并且打动自己。他自己果然被自己感动了。
一种人故意地要显得狡猾，以他的狡猾去魅惑人并且魅惑自己。他自己果然怀疑起自己来了。
潇洒就是自然而不做作，不拘束。然而，在实际上，只要做作得自然，不露拘束的痕迹，往往也就被当成了潇洒。
如今，潇洒成了一种时髦，活得潇洒成了一句口号。人们竞相做作出一种自然的姿态，恰好证明这是一个多么不自然的时代。
什么是虚假?虚假就是不真实，或者，故意真实。“我一定要真实！”——可是你已经在虚假了。
什么是做作?做作就是不真诚，或者，故意真诚。“我一定要真诚!”——可是你已经在做作了。
对于有的人来说，真诚始终只是他所喜欢扮演的一种角色。他极其真诚地进入角色，以至于和角色打成一片，相信角色就是他的真我，不由自主地被自己如此真诚的表演所感动了。
如果真诚为一个人所固有，是出自他本性的行为方式，他就决不会动辄被自己的真诚所感动。犹如血型和呼吸，自己甚至不可觉察，谁会对自己的血型和呼吸顾影自怜呢?(写到这里，发现此喻不妥，因为自从《血型与性格》、《血型与爱情》一类小册子流行以来，果然有人对自己的血型顾影自怜了。姑妄喻之吧。)
由此我获得了—个鉴定真诚的可靠标准，就是看一个人是否被自己的真诚所感动。一感动，就难免包含演戏和做作的成分了。
偶尔真诚一下、进入了真诚角色的人，最容易被自己的真诚感动。
一个人可以承认自己有种种缺点，但决不肯承认自己虚伪，不真诚。承认自己不真诚，这本身需要极大的真诚。有时候一个人似乎敢承认自己不真诚了，但同时便从这承认中获得非常的满足，觉得自己在本质上是多么真诚，比别人都真诚：你们不敢承认，我承认了!于是，在承认的同时，也就一笔抹杀了自己的不真诚。归根到底还是不承认。对虚伪的承认本身仍然是一种虚伪。
有做作的初学者，他其实还是不失真实的本性，仅仅在模仿做作。到了做作而不自知是做作，自己也动了真情的时候，做作便成了本性，这是做作的大师。
真诚者的灵魂往往分裂成一个法官和一个罪犯。当法官和罪犯达成和解时，真诚者的灵魂便得救了。
做作者的灵魂往往分裂成一个戏子和一个观众。当戏子和观众彼此厌倦时，做作者的灵魂便得救了。
她读着凡高的传记，泪眼汹涌，心想：“如果我在那个时代出生，我一定嫁给凡高。”
在凡高活着时，一定也有姑娘想象自己嫁给更早时代的天才，并且被这个念头感动得掉泪。而与此同时，凡高依然找不到一个愿意嫁给他的姑娘。
译文:
Role
Role
“To be yourself”—this words, as all moral maxims, is easier said than done. I even do not know whether I have become myself or not and it is difficult for us to tell where the role ends and when our true selves begin. Some roles are just costumes, while some, have been growing with our body, and the result of gradually shaking off roles are not much better than that of peeling onion.
Actors could remove makeup sometimes, while we can not leave the society for a moment, and according to others, we still play roles in seclusion and suicide.
Maybe, it is only when we failed to cover up the roles we try to play, can we see our true face. Every man can not avoid playing various roles in social life. However, a strong sense of role will lead to some problems and a man will expose his inner emptiness when he holds role more much important than his true color. I don't like to get involved with the people who possess a strong role of consciousness, such as the celebrities with strong celebrity sense, academics with strong authoritative sense, and bosses with strong sense of supervisors and so on, for they will make me feel tied. I am sure those people are also tired too, because they could not shake off other role: They are fathers in front of children and meek subordinates before their superiors. To some extent, they just like the never-removing-makeup-actors. Maybe some people are forced to play certain roles, but according to me, we should remove make-up if possible as well as enjoy a natural life.
Although a voice inside me, is so tenacious and never buried in any power, it will be gradually ignored, forgotten and finally become dies away in daily busyness and noise.
Every one is busy with playing its own role in the stage of life .It seems that they are much busier than actors and have no free time. For example, on one hand, I sit all day long to write for publications as well as for editors and readers’ wishes and needs. On the other hand, I heartily want to write something—the voice in my heart one day, but I am really tired up every day, while spare time coming, I really do not know what to write, because the voice inside me has been silence and gone at that time.
Do not always think that you can write it one day, because selfhood does not always listen to you and much more even, it will be impatient as well as disappears when you put it back.
It is not easy for people to escape from roles. Sometimes, one always plays another role unconsciously when he tries to shake off the traditional one, because anti-role is a role, too.
One kind of person turns out to be sincere unconsciously to move others as well as him, and he is really moved by himself at last.
Another kind of people appears cunning deliberately to delude others as well as him and lastly makes it.
Handsomeness should be natural, relaxed, and not artificial. However, affectation is viewed as handsome when it naturally appears without making any restrained cuing.
Handsomeness nowadays has been a fashion, and “enjoying a handsome life” has been a slogan. As a result, people race to make natural postures, by which it reveals an unnatural time.
What is falsity? Falsity is unreal, or tends to be real purposely. “I should be true!”—actually you are factitious.
What’s affectation? Affectation is insincere or appears faithful deliberately. “I should be faithful!” ——but you have been pretentious. For some people, sincerity is always nothing but a role he likes to play. While getting inside sincerely and then mixing feely with the character, he finally believes that the character is he himself, involuntarily moved by his own sincere performance as well.
If sincerity is a person’s inherent nature and the behavioral ways out of his nature, he will not be moved by his own sincerity easily. For example, one knows little about his own blood type and breathing, even though, who will care about that? (Write here, I sense that this parable is improper, because with the popularity booklets, like blood type and personality 、blood and love, there is some one care about his blood type. Above is just my metaphor.)
From what I have mentioned above, I gain a reliable standard for sincerity identification, that is, whether a man is moved by his own sincerity or not. If not, there must be playacting and affectation.
The person, who is occasionally sincere and gets inside the faithful character, will be easily moved by its sincerity.
Maybe one could admit his various weak points, but he will never admit his inveracity, his insincerity as well, for it needs a great deal of good faith to do that. Sometimes, it seems that a man have the courage to admit his insincerity, from which he can gain satisfactions as well. Meanwhile, he thinks that he is more sincere than others: All of you dare not admit that, and I admit it! And then he denies his insincerity by doing so. Thus, he actually does not admit it in the final analysis. The admission of affectation itself is a kind of affectation, too.
The affected man does not lose his nature totally and he just imitates how to affect at the very beginning. However, he will become an affected person in nature when he is not aware of he being pretentious and really moved, then we could say, he is the master of affectation.
There is always a judge and a criminal in the soul of a sincere man. Only both of them reach a settlement can the soul be saved.
For the soul of a pretentious man, there is always a player and a audience in it and it can get salvation when both sides are weary of each other.
A girl read the biography of Vincent van Gogh，with tears full of her eyes. She thought：“If I had been born at that time, I would marry him.” I think, there must be some girls at the Vincent’s time imagining marrying the genius in earlier era, but meanwhile, Vincent van Gogh still could not find a girl who was willing to marry him.